This is who I claim myself to be: simply a singer spreading love through music.
There is a woman who I detested. I wanted nothing to do with her because of the things she had done and said. She is conniving and dishonest. I held onto a grudge against her for years.
It was my producer who looked at me and said “you’re full of shit. If you can’t find forgiveness for this woman, then you’re full of shit and you need to come up with a new slogan for yourself.”
Wow, talk about a punch in the face. What an awakening. So I had to search deep within myself to begin to let go of this animosity I felt toward this other human being.
I began an internal conversation with myself:
Why am I so angry?
Because she lied and she continues to lie. She’s not trustworthy and she caused damage to another person that I care deeply about and she caused damage to me. She stole my money because she used it for purposes other than it was designated for and never told me about it. And she is a supreme liar. She lies about everything. You never know what is true and what is not.
So how do I move forward with forgiveness and compassion?
The person who she has harmed the most has forgiven her; why can’t I?
In order to protect him, I maintained my anger. I wanted her gone and out of our lives.
Again – he has forgiven her, why can’t you?
I see her as a thorn in my side. I don’t trust her. I don’t want any dealings with her. This is the hardest part because she will stay in our lives.
So I need to stop seeing her as an obstacle and see her as another side of me, another part of me. If I grew up the way she did and experienced the circumstances in my life as she did, that could easily be me. Compassion. See her as another part of me. Accept her for who she is and be willing to allow her “to be.”
Forget about the money and the lies and give her love. I don’t have to trust her. I don’t have to deal with her with financial issues. I don’t even have to be judgmental about the things she says. So I will give her love. I will give her compassion and I will be there if she needs me.
It is the way I would like to be treated by other human beings regardless of who I am or what I’ve done. I would want to be forgiven. I would want to be accepted. I would want to be loved.
The old “do unto others…” Remember the lessons my parents taught me with their lives and their doing and their beingness. They accepted anyone. My thought process has come full circle.
Simply A Singer – Spreading Love Through Music. That’s me.
Who are you?
